From one beginning to another: Londyn's transition in childcare

WoW! I am full of some many emotions this week. I honestly don't know where to start. I guess I could start with how lucky and thankful I am.
When Keith and I found out that we were pregnant we began to discuss childcare options for the first year of our baby's life. After prayer and casual conversation, a great woman of God offered to care for our precious jewel. Ms. Heather or "Hey You" (as she referred to herself at times) was a gift from God to us. Those who truly follow my blog know that leaving Londyn the first weeks after going back to work were hard. I remember crying myself to sleep at night (funny I am crying now thinking of all the emotions I felt at the time), soaking every last minute I had with Londyn, praying that I would become a stay at home mommy. After six months of being in the care of Heather I can honestly say that was one of the best decisions I have made. We would drop her off in the mornings and Londyn's little face would light up with joy. When we saw Heather on Sundays she couldn't get to Londyn fast enough. As I admitted yesterday, Londyn had a second mommy. While with Heather Londyn learned to roll, sit, crawl, pull up, smile, laugh, play peek-a-boo, do the motions to so big, wave, the list could go on forever. The biggest thing that Heather gave my sweet girl is love. I know that Londyn would go to Heather in a heart beat if I ever needed her. Love, Love, Love is what we felt.

We made the decision to move Londyn to Kiddie Kollege when she became old enough. I was so excited to have her at the same place as us, give her the quality education that I know Kiddie Kollege has to offer. This was her big week to began the next journey in life. She has a loving teacher, Ms. Gail. I think Ms. Gail is going to be Londyn's Grammy. I had no fear moving Londyn over. But this week has been disastrous in my heart. Londyn is suffering from major stranger and separation anxiety. Monday and Tuesday I am pretty sure she cried all day. Yesterday she did better and even had more than a 30 minute nap for the day. Today is the hardest of all. She has done great, it is me that it is hard on. She saw me this morning while in the gym so I stopped loved her played for a few minutes and then went back to what I was doing. As I turned around she was looking at me with those big elephant tears. It broke my heart. My heart is very heavy today. I don't want to see her have mommy-aches, eat little, cry constantly, and sleep little to none.

As I have thought about writing this blog for 2 weeks, I was excited to report that she is transitioning well and that no tears have been shed. That's not true in our case. I know that for the growth/education of Londyn we have made the best decision. I know that Gail was heaven sent for Londyn. I have seen her work with other children and care and love them so much. She is awesome! It's easy to tell the parents that their child will be fine (most of the time they are after 5 minutes), but when I hear my little girl cry and ache for her mommy I have a hard time practicing that. You want the best for your child, every mom does. I KNOW that we are giving Londyn the best care that she could get, from birth til now.

Today I stand here to say that God placed two special women to care for my little blessing. I also know that God knows how this is all going to play out. I am sure that Londyn is going to love it at Kiddie Kollege, as I have seen this many times before. I know that she will have the same love for her Ms.Gail as she does for her Ms. Heather. She is going to make great friends, learn so much about God and His mercy, get the best education possible, and will have the love of her teachers that will awe us.

As my heart sits heavy today (as it did 7 months ago) I know that God is in control. As Beth Moore said last night "who knows? God Knows" So true. Please pray for us as this transition continues from week to week.