I have found a new meaning to life in the past week. Last Friday started a new chapter in life. Londyn Rae was born at 8:15am on 4.2.10. She weighed 7lbs 4oz and measured 20 inches. Last week I was preparing for her birth while catching up on Facebook. Today I am doing laundry, feeding, changing diapers, rocking, and trying to catch a little ZzZzZz during the day. Funny how nothing matters now except to make her happy and enjoy every little expression that she makes.
Motherhood is interesting. I seriously thought I was ready for it. Now I don't know how you are ever ready for it, nor can you prepare for it. I am beyond exhausted at this point, living on adrenaline alone. Emotions are a whirlwind at this time. Poor Keith can look at me and I bawl my eyes out. Why do I cry? Not really sure. Maybe it is the fact that I am responsible for this little being, or that I am going to have to go back to work at some point, or that I feel so blessed that God has entrusted me with one of his children. Whatever the case might be I only know I do a lot of crying to only laugh deep within.
Last night it took 5 hours for her to finally close her eyes long enough to fall asleep. The pacifier, which we were determined not to use, was opened and used. Needless to say, I think it is a life saver at this time:)
It is time to get some rest before she wakes up and is ready to feed again.
One last thing....I am so blessed to have a husband that cares and helps take care of us, a daughter who has given a new meaning of life to me, and a God who has granted me patience and love.
.......I am blessed!
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