It's time for healing time to move on; It's time to fix what's been broken too long; Time make right what has been wrong; It's time to find my way to where I be; There's a wave that's crashing over me; All I can do is surrender
[Chorus]
Whatever you're doing inside of me; It feels like chaos somehow there's peace; It's hard to surrender to what I can't see; But I'm giving in to something heavenly
Time for a milestone; Time to begin again; Reevaluate who I really am; Am I doing everything to follow your will; Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills; So show me what it is you want from me; I give everything I surrender... To...
[Chorus]
Time to face up; Clean this old house; Time to breathe in and let everything out; That I've wanted to say for so many years; Time to to release all my held back tears; Whatever you're doing inside of me; It feels like chaos but I believe; You're up to something bigger than me; Larger than life something heavenly; Whatever you're doing inside of me; It feels like chaos but now I can see; This something bigger than me; Larger than life something heavenly; Something heavenly; It's time to face up; Clean this old house; Time breathe in and let everything out

~Sanctus Real~

As I was listening to this on the radio today, klove station, I thought about my life. It has been amazing what God has done to me in the past year. I have just made it one year as Interim Director at Kiddie Kollege. In the beginning of it all I felt as though I was not good enough to do the position. As the year went on I came to a point where I realized that God would not have put me there as Interim if he didn't think that I could do it, if it was not His will. Now I am at a different stage, this is a stage of feeling like I couldn't be stretch by God anymore. I am in the process of trying to hire 4 teachers, over working my substitute teachers, teaching classrooms myself. As I think of the chorus of this song it says ~Whatever you're doing inside of me it feels like chaos somehow there is peace~ that is me. In that same time of feeling stretched to far from God, I also feel like there is a peace to be found inside of me. I know that He will take care of us and that Kiddie Kollege will make it. Please pray for my staff and I as we are in this journey together.

Having a Mary Heart In a Martha World

July 27th Keith had went away for District Assembly and I was debating on whether I should go to our Bible Study, ERC or stay home and get things accomplished. I was inspired to go so that I could get a Cotton Candy Blizzard from DQ, selfish reasons, huh?
So I went to Bible Study, because that was the thing to do, and then we opened our Bibles to Luke 10:38-42. Ladies, you probably know where I am going with this. To refresh your memory, let me share with you what the story is about. Jesus went to visit these two sisters, Mary and Martha. Mary was a laid back, cool cat, nothing is bothering her type. Poor Martha was a busy body, she was so upset when Jesus was at the house and Mary was just sitting around while Martha was preparing this lavishing meal to dine with Jesus. She wanted Jesus to talk to Mary about her behavior. Jesus said to her, Martha Martha, your sister is doing the right thing she is taking time out for me and you are too busy to enjoy the moment.
This reminds me of when my husband Keith and I are getting ready to have company over, or company is already there, and I run around the house like a chicken with its head cut off trying to make everything perfect. Keith gets so upset with me, because I will not relax and enjoy our company. I tend to say to him that if Jesus walked into our home I would want it to be suitable and comfortable for his stay. The truth is that it is just my perfectionism that I need to make comfortable.
You see I needed to be at that Bible Study, so whether it was just for ice cream, the Lord used that to get me to Bible Study to hear his word.
I don't know whether you are a laid back Mary or worry bug like Martha, but we all need to be in check of our relationships and lifestyles.You might find yourself staying busy to forget something else, or to help our in ministries, to make you feel like you have your life in order, whatever it might be, I know that I need to re prioritize my life to be pleasing to God.....I need to give God, myself and my husband more of my time.
Think about it, Are you a Mary or a Martha? I have been inspired to search further. I am beginning to read the book called, Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World.